Seriously?!?

Ok, so I totally feel like a jerk. I normally am. It kind of defines me. Yeah, I’m that girl who doesn’t sing in church because my husband just stole a sip of my coffee. I’m the girl who won’t talk to you because I’m tired of instigating and maintaining relationships. I’m the girl your wouldn’t recognize if I smiled…and so on.

But besides that part, I just read a post from a precious, smart, confident, and way beautiful woman that was hurt by the comments and attitudes of others. The truth is, I set my jerkiness aside everyday to point my finger at the people around me for doing whatever they’re doing wrong. What? You just said a curse word because your computer randomly shut down without saving your work? What? You stay up until 2am partying? What? You think Christianity is a hoax…a ploy?

Nevermind the fact that I threw a Clorox bottle at my husband. Or that I avoid people as much as possible. Nevermind the fact that I think God hasn’t been listening to me for years. Nevermind the fact that the only “Christian” ties I have right now is that I go to church on Sundays and sometimes Sunday nights if I haven’t flipped our mattress and thrown a lamp.

Shame, shame on me.

It has been refreshing the last few weeks to enjoy the company of a few people that don’t fit the mold of my “conventional” comrades. And I have to remember that the millions of thoughts that go through my head added to the aforementioned actions and few nasty insults are equal in God’s sight to the partying and curse words…worse probably because I consider my sin with apathy.

Shame.

P.S. Please be praying for a sweet woman who is considering abortion but is going to the doctor to hear her baby’s heartbeat today. :)